Maybe. My Most Favourite Word.

There's something about the waiting. Something that gives life and takes it all at the same time. In a minute, anything and everything is possible. Sixty. Fifty-nine. Fifty-eight. Fifty-seven. And then one; The scarriest and most hopeful number in the world. It only takes one second to have everything. And one second to have nothing. In that one second, the possibility of an entire life can flash before your eyes. In that one second, you still have 'maybe'.

A Wild Sheep Confusion

I have finished the book. Definitely worth the effort. But someone please, put me out of my misery - tell me what it's about!!! Does the sheep and his 5-pointed star stand for humanity? Does he stand for all that has decayed in religion? Or does he symbolize Christ? If you were to ask me whether it was a friendly sheep or an evil sheep, I would lean towards evil. But a sheep, by nature, is such a docile and peaceful animal. It stands, typically, for all that is good. That is unless it is a wolf in sheep's clothing.

I will not reveal the ending. I have already said much too much.

A Wild Sheep Chase

My first Haruki Murakami book. I've been reading it off and on since May by recommendation from a trusted friend. I'm not sure why I chose this as my first selection and perhaps something else might have served better as an introduction. Suffice it to say, I was a hair away from giving up when I reached chapter 11. It reads as follows:

"I dreamed about a dairy cow. Rather nice and small this cow, the type that looked like she'd been through a lot. We passed each other on a big bridge. It was a pleasant spring afternoon. The cow was carrying an old electric fan in one hoof, and she asked whether I wouldn't buy it from her cheap.
"I don't have much money," I said. Really, I didn't.
"Well then," said the cow, "I might trade it to you for a pair of pliers."
Not a bad deal. So the cow and I went home together, and I turned the house upside down looking for the pliers. But they were nowhere to be found.
"Odd," I said, "they were here just yesterday."
I had just brought a chair over so I could get up and look on top of the cabinet when the chauffeur tapped me on the shoulder. "We're here," he said succinctly.
The car door opened and the waning light of a summer afternoon fell across my face. Thousands of cicadas were singing at a high pitch like the winding of a clockspring. There was the rich smell of earth.
I got out of the limo, stretched, and took a deep breath. I prayed that there wasn't some kind of symbolism to the dream."

Well now, that's interesting! My curiosity has been peaked. Murakami's writing is very surreal. Very Kafkaesque. There is little logic as far as I can tell and yet I do not question it. I do hope that I can make it further. And I happily confess that chapters 12, 13, and 14 are even more mysterious. Although I find it cold that very few people have names in this book. The main characters so far have been "I" and "Rat". Hmm...

Kitchen

I am currently re-reading Kitchen by Banana Yoshimoto. Once again, I am reminded by how much I love her style of writing. Her sentences are simple and true. There is a lightness to them, but also a universal weight.

"The night was so deathly silent that I felt I could hear the sound of the stars moving across the heavens. The glass of water soaked into my withered heart. It was chilly. My bare feet trembled in my slippers."

Washing Skyscraper Windows

I just finished Reading Like a Writer by Francine Prose and I definitely recommend it for any lover of words. Or even liker of words. It's full of charm, anecdotes and examples of great writing. But most of all it reminds me that anything is possible in writing; that there are no rules. Her advice is simple in the end. To be a great writer, you have to be a great reader. However, I can't help thinking that no matter how many great masterpieces you read and deconstruct, you either have "it" or you don't. And why is it that the voice that tells us that we don't is always louder and more persistent, like the class bully? In my mind, there can be three possibilities, each equally as grim. 1. It's the voice of reason. 2. It's the voice of cowardice. 3. Schizophrenia has become an epidemic of great proportions.

"When we think about how many terrifying things people are called on to do every day as they fight fires, defend their rights, perform brain surgery, give birth, drive on the free-way, and wash skyscraper windows, it seems frivolous, self-indulgent, and self-important to talk about writing as an act that requires courage. What could be safer than sitting at your desk, lightly tapping a few keys, pushing your chair back, and pausing to see what marvelous tidbit of art your brain has brought forth to amuse you?

And yet most people who have tried to write have experienced not only the need for bravery but a failure of nerve as the real or imagined consequences, faults and humiliations, exposures and inadequacies dance before their eyes and across the empty screen or page. The fear of writing badly, of revealing something you would rather keep hidden, of losing the good opinion of the world, of violating your own high standards, or of discovering something about yourself that you would just as soon not know -- those are just a few of the phantoms scary enough to make the writer wonder if there might be a job available washing skyscraper windows.

All of which brings up yet another reason to read. Literature is an endless source of courage and confirmations. The reader and beginning writer can count on being heartened by all the brave original works that have been written without the slightest regard for how strange or risky they were, or for what the writer's mother might have thought when she read them."

Read: New York Time's Book Review

When I was 14, my mother found a short story that I had written about a girl who started a conversation with a perfect stranger on the city bus. And that's all I have to say about that.

The Owl of Forgetting

In the basement of my mind, there lives an owl. He is old, fat, and always hungry. He is the owl of forgetting.

Once I fed him the entire multiplications table. Right up to and including 12x12. It took him some years to devour that feast, but he did it. I feed him dates, names, phone numbers too. Those, he loves. Appetizers. Inhales them like there is no tomorrow. Friendships are great. Ashley, Sarah, Rose; who are they? Stories about loved ones, heroes, and legacies, all turn to crumbs when he is done with them. The countries in Africa blend into one and the oceans that divide us, now alphabet soup. The pathologies of plants and the table of elements were delicious while they lasted. And the books that I read, word for word, are now a dim light. But that which he loves most of all is a visitor. A visitor from the attic of my heart. And from time to time, his wish comes true.

He is the vampire of the seconds and minutes of my days.

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